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i was in medical school when DI diagnosed , and i sudenly started to drink to much water and slowly most of my time wasted betwen drink and sink. i wasnt able to sleep because i woke up many times in every night to go toilet and drink water . in a point night wakeups drive me mad i was nearly a sleepwalker. i couldnt consantrate, i couldnt focus on any thing , i was like an alien walking around. 4-5 month later i diagnosed my self (i was just medical student) and i m good enough in todays with my pills . thank you to mom: She throw a water barrel to me and scream " take your water and go your room, are you trying to drive me mad with the your water consumption" . Then i started to think what is wrong with me : because every thing was fine according to me no pain no disability how could i have a health stuation? i was drinking water a little much (like 10 liters a day) but i was thirst and water was a wonderful drink. Drinking icy water in the midle of the winter was making me a litle shake but water was incredibly good when you drink cold. Did you know, if you drink 2 liter coke in 15 minutes you can explodingly vomite but drinking was a wonderfull thing. İf you are in a bus trip for 5 hours you can become a boddy of bus driver because there is still no toilet in buses.. and my psychiatrist (because in a point sleep disorders and medical school can make you crack) tried to hypnotise me i still remember he was asking me "stay on the surface of water" , i was crying "i can not, i am not able to " he was asking why you are drinking to much " i dont know, i dont know" .....tey were terrible terrible days when i look back. And i wasnt aware whats going on. i was clean on diabetes mellitus, my kidney was fine , all my labratory tests were normal , "did i become obsesive compulsive with water " , " am i loosing my mind and is this a sign". But at the end of story, i learned as a doctor, patients are inside the stuation so they have always bias they are fallible because disease becoming a part of them slowly and i have to care them when they are blind to theirself. firsth endocrinolog take me water restriction test and she couldnt be sure about diabetes insipitus. they take every hour blood sample and said me there is no enough staff so you have to bring blood sample to the lab. it was nothing for firsth hours but after my lips become dry i feel fatigue so much i didnt want to move a step but i had to go lab every hour. after 8 hour without water, i felt so sick. but test results were not clear. but this was my first water restriction and it made me sure i cant live without water. Endocrinolog didnt want to give me desmopressin but gave a trial and write a prescription. 1 week later i would nearly the cry, because i understanded my life without water issues was much more easier. half of my problems vanished suddenly. Endocrinology was still fighting with me "we are not sure" . But i was experiencing what is going on directly .I was worry about my pshycolocial stuation because still there is an explanation.Between DI and pshicologic polidipsy there is a relation in some case like chiken and egg issue. Self analysing can be hurt you if you aimed to find something. any way at the end of story radiolog found a sign in MRI ,"(TI density in hipophis ,and a pineal cyst)" . and so i could able to stop digging my own soul for find a sick part.

İ have still have worries about my soul and hypophyis. i am still thinking water is the most valuable molecule on earth and adore it (because it is right). But i would never want to be same stuation with water. When i am thinking scientists who worked on lab day and night for found a solution, and how much dear this to me ...my heart filling with gratefulness. I feel like they are close to me like my familiy even if i never know their name. the earth and humanity allways deserve a chance because some one in there working for us, without a clue about us , who we are? , did we deserve his/her exertion? did we ever know him/her did what for us? They didnt neglect, they spend their life. They never earn like a company, companies become rich over them. they knew it but they didnt stop. They worked hard and they still working. This can not unpaid with money. THANK YOU