My Inspiration...That's What My Testimony Shall Be

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Right now...I am in an emotional cloud!!! As of today, at 1pm on January 6, 2019, I was diagnosed with Lichen Sclerosus. In less than 30mins, I have to share with the one person who has brought more joy in my 56yrs here on earth, that I now have another medical statistic issue to add to our life. My high school sweetheart came looking for me after 35+years, September 2016. We rekindled our relationship in May 2017...he proposed to me on Thanksgiving Day, November 2017; we got married September 28, 2018.

On this journey called LIFE...I have been down this road more than what I could have possibly experienced: molestation, rape, mental/emotional/physical/financial abuse. Lost the greatest loves of my life -- my mom, Lolo and my grandmother, G~ma Millie. I have had 12 surgeries in my lifetime...I suffer with severe muscle spasms. Between 2013-2017, I've lost friendships and a sibling who will not talk to me. I have several medical conditions that would make a grown person ask God, "why me...again?" And yet, I can feel my beloved Lolo and G~ma Millie tugging at me... whispering in my ear..."this too shall past..." Lord...I'm asking for strength, courage, wisdom to get me thru this unspeakable challenge that I must face with my husband. A man that was mentally/emotionally abused in a life-less marriage of 30yrs (before he found me). The one thing he asked that I would not do that his ex did...deny him of sexual intimacy.

UPDATE: As of 8pm, January 6, 2019, I shared this situation with my love. At the moment...I told my husband to divorce me. Guess I should known better. He said he is not going anywhere...that WE will get thru this. I pray that God continues to keep my love filled with compassion & patience...and know that I love him/us more than anything.

I cannot allow my body to define who I am...my dreams/wants/desires. I am more than all the challenges I have faced in my 56yrs. I have to be the conqueror...I have to continue to be the inspiration...this LS will have to be my testimony.

All I can say as of January 6, 2020, stay tune...keep me/us in prayer...and know that you are not alone. This is just the beginning...not my ending...this Nubian Queen ain't letting this damn LS block my happiness and blessings!!!

Clue to Life
*Learn to live life now
*Learn to laugh
*Can't take it with you