My story

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_I honestly don't know how it started when I was in the 4th grade (11 years old at the time living in California) I remembered pulling my eyelashes and eyebrows out I started to hide it when my bangs. No one really noticed it. When my parents told my brother and I we had to move to Iowa. I didn't start pulling my scalp until I was 12 or 13   I didn't know why I did it I felt lost. I tried to hide it under my aunts pulled out bed/couch. But she found out and confronted me. She said she felt hurt that I was doing this to myself.  My family took me to this doctor well that didn't help at all. I felt so embarrassed. I've seen a  therapist. Nope. Waste of time and money. Few years passed 7th grade had to wear a wig until my hair grew some.  Terrible experience.  Then when it was time to say goodbye to the wig.  People started to talk crap about me and laughing at my short hair. People assume I was "emo" at that time and I wasn't. I wish people would of asked about it then spread rumors that won't even true.  Years pass I'm in high school now, I didn't pulled my scalp again but I was still pulling my eyelashes. No one noticed. I didn't start pulling again until I was 18 when I was pregnant with my 1st. Stopped when I was 19/20.  Started to pull again when I found out I was pregnant with my second. My pregnancies felt terrible I felt so overwhelmed. I was breastfeeding... my girls refused to take bottles. So I was pretty much taking care of both of them by myself. It caused me to pull so much than I have ever have in the past. Now that I'm 21 I stopped pulling my scalp, and eyelashes. I look at my girls everyday and  I tell myself pulling is not worth it. My girls help me through this difficult journey and I'm so thankful for that _