A Edwards syndrome story

My daughter Lauren was diagnosed with t18 at 22 weeks.After a detailed scan then an amino.Drs advised Lauren"was not compatible with life"and to terminate pregnancy.Wee had over that weekend to decide.So it was either take tablets and come back to hospital in 2 days time or it would have been a needle through my abdomen into Lauren's heart to stop.Lauren was born sleeping on 5th February 2014.I went to counselling they said its like post dramatic stress.As the events leading up to having Lauren kept playing over and over.I go up to Lauren's grave a couple of times a week.It used to be everyday.It's so hard as my friends have kids same age and there all meeting there mile stones.