My Inspiration...That's What My Testimony Shall Be

Right now...I am in an emotional cloud!!! As of today, at 1pm on January 6, 2019, I was diagnosed with Lichen Sclerosus. In less than 30mins, I have to share with the one person who has brought more joy in my 56yrs here on earth, that I now have another medical statistic issue to add to our life. My high school sweetheart came looking for me after 35+years, September 2016. We rekindled our relationship in May 2017...he proposed to me on Thanksgiving Day, November 2017; we got married September 28, 2018.

On this journey called LIFE...I have been down this road more than what I could have possibly experienced: molestation, rape, mental/emotional/physical/financial abuse. Lost the greatest loves of my life -- my mom, Lolo and my grandmother, G~ma Millie. I have had 12 surgeries in my lifetime...I suffer with severe muscle spasms. Between 2013-2017, I've lost friendships and a sibling who will not talk to me. I have several medical conditions that would make a grown person ask God, "why me...again?" And yet, I can feel my beloved Lolo and G~ma Millie tugging at me... whispering in my ear..."this too shall past..." Lord...I'm asking for strength, courage, wisdom to get me thru this unspeakable challenge that I must face with my husband. A man that was mentally/emotionally abused in a life-less marriage of 30yrs (before he found me). The one thing he asked that I would not do that his ex did...deny him of sexual intimacy.

UPDATE: As of 8pm, January 6, 2019, I shared this situation with my love. At the moment...I told my husband to divorce me. Guess I should known better. He said he is not going anywhere...that WE will get thru this. I pray that God continues to keep my love filled with compassion & patience...and know that I love him/us more than anything.

I cannot allow my body to define who I am...my dreams/wants/desires. I am more than all the challenges I have faced in my 56yrs. I have to be the conqueror...I have to continue to be the inspiration...this LS will have to be my testimony.

All I can say as of January 6, 2020, stay tune...keep me/us in prayer...and know that you are not alone. This is just the beginning...not my ending...this Nubian Queen ain't letting this damn LS block my happiness and blessings!!!

Clue to Life
Learn to live life now
Learn to laugh
*Can't take it with you