Read all you can. it's a gift in this somewhere. your perception of life is unique, the sensitivity to others is to be used. Supplements can help. For me, DHEA helped turn back the clock, I feel stronger, more able to handle everyday stresses.... My next try is Melatonin. Stay strong! I get it. You get information from Source/Universe and can't quite put the pieces together. it's ok. It's so many of us. You have a second brain in your gut. try to take care of that one too.