It’s in moments like these when my pain flares are so uncontrollable and renders me absolutely helpless that I feel myself spiralling down a large big black hole.
I cry inwardly , no one sees , no one hears the pain. I ‘m not cut, their are no bruises , it’s so hard to explain to others .I ‘m a dry ,I’m sad , I feel isolated, I feel alone.
I lay in my bed , the covers hold no comfort as they seem to burn my skin.My feet are tingly and blue . 4-5 days of sheer hell , sleepless nights and I am weary and tired again.. There is no relief in sight and this silent monster is off the lead again but I have no energy to catch it and put it back on the lead.