I was literally suicidal not because I wanted to be dead, only because I wanted to escape that wretched pain that tormented me night and day for the first two years. The pain was so severe and no one seemed to believe how severe it was! I could see the doctors notes where it stated I was "catastrophizing" I knew they had no idea 10-20% of ME patients commit suicide to escape the treachery! The best treatment for me was the Fentanyl pain patch along with morphine tablets for breakthrough pain as needed twice daily! I'm sure I would've succumbed if my doctor hadn't finally provided this for me! I still have a great deal of pain, but at least I have a way to manage it!
I also got postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS) about two years after I got sick and could not even sit up without my heart rate and blood pressure skyrocketing too dangerous heights, so of the very next best treatment has been one liter of IV NS fluids every other day . I could finally at least sit up in a recliner and not be at risk for having a stroke when I walked short distances to the bathroom!